Friday, September 23, 2011


That's all I keep repeating in my head. That doctors words keep stabbing my mind.
" well everything looks good with your pap smear, except your hpv postive. You'll need a pap smear every six months to check for cervical cancer." the only thing I could say was oh my god. I can't believe it. First kidney stones now this. This might be all my fault. I've faithful to Josh since the day I met him. But what about before that?
I'm so done. I'm so tired.
And what if I'm pregnant? What does that mean for my baby?


  1. It's hard Karen, Josh might actually have HPV and you got it from him. Guys usually don't show symptoms (other than like cancer or something) and as far as I know there isn't a test to see if they have it. So if you had never been tested before and you just did now, it's just as likely you got it from him than anyone else. A lot of people have it and don't actually know it. I'm sorry you have it, but if you keep a cap on it and make sure to keep an eye on it you can live a healthy life. It's very rare a mother passes it on to her baby during delivery (although it does happen) but I'm sure if you talk to the doctor about your concerns he can clear up any questions you have. :( Good luck Karen, although I know you can handle this because you're a strong woman.

  2. It's crazy I've been with josh 3 years, I got a pap smear while I was pregnant with Aiden and nothing. While all of a sudden is this happening. I feel so dirty, I'm so upset. It's an STD, I have an STD....

  3. A LOT of people have it Karen (and don't know it!! Hell, I could have it!), don't feel so bad about yourself :( :( They might have just missed it the first time. Because if you got it before Josh (from someone else)- they you would have had to have had it during the first pap. Although I absolutely understand why you're upset. I'm sure it's very scary and stressful :( But don't be so hard on yourself it's really not your fault. I promise. <3

  4. Thanks kori, I'm starting to learn more about it. It's not so scary anymore.
    Thanks for being such a great friend and calming me down :)
    I love your face

  5. I am sooo glad you're feeling better. :) I love you too. I know you'll pull through it, you're amazing like that.

  6. HPV is the most common sexually transmitted infection (STI not STD). Approximately 20 million Americans are currently infected with HPV. Another 6 million people become newly infected each year. HPV is so common that at least 50% of sexually active men and women get it at some point in their lives. A person can have HPV even if years have passed since he or she had sexual contact with an infected person. Most infected persons do not realize they are infected or that they are passing the virus on to a sex partner. It is also possible to get more than one type of HPV.

    Rarely, a pregnant woman with genital HPV can pass HPV to her baby during delivery. Very rarely, the child can develop juvenile-onset recurrent respiratory papillomatosis (JORRP)

  7. Sti? I thought it was an STD, I wish the midwife would have explained more. Everything I'm learning is either hear say or online. Thanks sage that makes me feel better. I think understanding what it is makes it seem a lot less scary.

  8. Well, good I'm glad it helped. You don't have to feel bad or ashamed that you got this. It really is quite common and that is why they have come up with a vaccine for it that they are giving to young girls to try to protect them before they ever become sexually active.