Monday, March 2, 2009

Fathers and Sons

I feel so crappy today.  Last night  Me Josh and Paul got in a huge fight. I should have just kept my mouth shut. But it made me so mad to hear what he said to josh. I'm like a mama bear, mess with my baby, You're done. It was almost like blind rage. Josh started walking away from paul saying he didn't want to talk anymore. Paul screams out PUSSY! I snapped. Shut the F up Paul! Start Actually being a Father! He yells out at me I am one! I told him to start being a better one! I yelled, Have you ever taken the chance to get to know how amazing your son is? He called me a really nasty name... Josh called paul and said it was over. That he had crossed the line. 
I feel terrible. They would be still talking if it wasn't for me. I just couldn't take it. I've been holding in all this anger towards paul. Josh doesn't deserve a crappy dad. And to hear him talk to josh the way he did. Made me so angry. 
Maybe he woke up this morning realizing he needs to  change some stuff. The way he treats his kids. Or maybe he'll wonder why only one of his kids talks to him anymore. What's really sad, is I was starting to see the good things about paul. I was excited to have him as a father in law. But as I was holding josh last night while he was crying. I realized Paul is an empty pathetic hole. He will always be the way he is. And it's none of our jobs to change him other than Paul


  1. I hope that Josh is feeling better today. He *is* a great guy!

  2. Thanks for sticking up for Josh. ♥