Growing up

The most amazing thing happened today. I was sitting at the computer when josh told me to come  see what he had done. He took out his lip piercing, his tongue, and his gauges. He looked at me and asked if I liked it. I asked if he did. He told me that didn't matter. I told him I loved it, he looked me in the eyes and told me it's time to grow up.

Thats the best thing I could ask  for my birthday. I feel like josh would do anything for me. And he's growing up and is going to become the best husband. I never thought I would meet the man I would spend the rest of my life with. 

I've gone threw so many jerks to get to josh. I've cried, I've been heartbroken, I've been abused emotionally and physically. And it's all been worth it. I know god has a plan for me, and I know it's to have josh in my life. To be my partner and help me threw this life.

We read the scriptures tonight. At first josh was a little worried to read scriptures.  But we sat in my bedroom and he laid on my lap and listened. While we said the prayer he told me. It's time to grow up. I'm getting my life in order so I can get make to the church. It's scary, and I'm scared. But I have Josh. And I want to get married in the temple. I want to spend the rest of eternity with my sweet joshua. And I have faith that god will help me and guide me.